Waking up is remembering our real being.
It is a journey into the unconditional inner peace that we are.
It is remembering who we were before we started playing
this game of I-am-separate.
But how can we remember?
What worked best for me was the 180 degree inward look. Awareness watching itself.
This is a Dzogchen meditation method. But the easiest description of this is in a short 4 min video on John Sherman’s website http://www.justonelook.org/.
Initially, my ego wouldn’t let me look inside. This manifested as an itching sensation over the whole body when I tried the exercise. But after trying for a few weeks, that feeling subsided.
At first, there was deep peace. If I were to use a metaphor, I would compare it to a still, dark surface of a lake. Dark because of the lack of sensory input. And still because it was so peaceful and quiet.
Afterwards, quiet joy emerged. Again, if I had to use a metaphor, it felt like a small fountain. Always pouring forth. Always moving. Inexhaustible.
The remarkable thing about this joy was that it was not dependent on the outer circumstances. It was unconditional.
At first, I thought, ‘Yeah, nice. But that is just another emotional state.’ And I stopped practicing.
But then, I read, “No, no! It is not just another emotional state. It is our real being.”
Ah! THAT place is our real being. That place is where I can remember what I am.
Turning awareness back on itself and resting in there is like the prodigal son returning home to the father. The joy that is felt there is the joy of coming home.