Some years ago, our mail server was restructured. After that upgrade, my emails of the last 30 days were lost.
Fortunately, I had already read all of them and there were no action items left. But still, I wanted to keep them just for the record.
My initial reaction was self-righteous upset. “Oh boy, they messed it up!”
Of course, I asked whether the emails could be restored. But somehow that wasn’t possible without unwanted side effects.
Then I became quiet.
A Course In Miracles (ACIM) teaches to turn within and ask, ‘How can I see this differently?’
Lately, that translates for me into, ‘How the heck have I manifested that one?’
Suddenly, it dawned on me.
This happened during a phase when I was decluttering my home. It was like a compulsive decluttering diarrhea where I thought about nothing else than getting rid of old stuff. For ten weeks in a row, I threw away stuff from all categories. Clothing, books, CDs, pots and pans, etc. .
The universe merely seemed to say, “You like to throw things away? Let me see how I can help you.”
And with a mischievous grin it cleaned away my emails, too.
I became quiet and didn’t get upset, knowing that I had called this issue into my experience.
Four weeks later and without any further action from my side, the lost emails suddenly reappeared.
ACIM style forgiveness is not about creating a better dream. Instead, it is about waking up to the fact that we have all created this ourselves. As a byproduct, the manifestation of the outer world can change.