An essential aspect of the spiritual journey with divine guidance is trust. There are two parts to trust. One is to trust whether the message we received comes from spirit and not from our ego. And also, is it from a benevolent, wise spirit and not from a negative one? And the other part is to actually trust enough that all will work out well so that we are courageous enough to dare to act on the message or advice. Getting guidance to do something scary (like coming out of the woo-closet, for example) does not mean we are automatically ready to follow that guidance.
In order to trust guidance, it is crucial to learn to distinguish it from the ego’s voice. But how? Some parts may be obvious. If it is the voice of anger, hatred, or fear, it is from ego.
But at other times, there is no easy answer since the ego can come as a wolf in sheep’s clothing. The ego can mask itself as reliability and responsibility when it is really attachment to the former self-definition and attachment to security and comfortable old pathways. So, I have to be aware that any of my well-meant intentions can stem from ego.
If the universe wants me to do something, there will usually be many signs pointing into that direction on many different input channels. But if the ego wants me to do something, there won’t be such signs.
Also, inner peace is a measure. If I am in inner peace, then the inner guidance is most likely from spirit.
For learning to trust the guidance, I find it helpful to maintain a healthy communication partnership like I would in the 3d world. And by that I mean patient listening without interrupting, repeating the content in own words and asking “did I understand this correctly?”, or asking “I don’t see the point. Can you clarify more?”
In order to establish this kind of rapport, you can ask for fine-tuning of the communication methods. For example, I asked for additional signals that the inner voice was of spirit and got little flashes of light on my retina and sounds in the outside world like that of a window frame which is cracking as it is adjusting to temperature differences.
(Just as I was re-reading this sentence in the draft version of this post, the window frame in my living room made a cracking noise and my heart made a jump of joy. I love these little synchronicities which occur throughout my day. That which would otherwise feel like an ordinary groundhog day suddenly becomes sprinkled with the shiny glitter of awe and wonder.)
If I don’t understand guidance or disagree, then I discuss and ask for clarification. I think it is important to not become a yes-man. The spiritual journey is not about adoring or serving our spirit guides. But it is about coming into touch with or own divinity.
Here is a story by Paul Tuttle, who channels Raj (aka Jesus). He ran into this trap of being overly obedient once he realized that it was Jesus who he was talking to. And it is interesting to see what trick Jesus had to apply in order to get him out of that state.
“He shifted from a healthy relationship with me to one of blind obedience. It was an interesting situation—and I will not go on at length about it—but it was an interesting situation because I could not tell him to stop doing it because he would have been blindly obedient. And so I set up a circumstance for him—an impossible circumstance.“
Source : Raj gathering, Lake Morey, 1994,
from http://heavenlydesigns.homestead.com/Gathering.html (page 39 of 99)
Eventually, Paul got so uncomfortable with the “impossible circumstance” that was set up for him that he refused to follow guidance. But he had returned to his integrity.
Once the guidance is clear and I have accepted it, I should follow it. Otherwise there might be consequences like mirroring events in my surroundings or sickness.
Once I have followed it, I can then evaluate whether what the guidance told me was true.
I have found that following my guidance was beneficial in most cases. However, at one time I felt that I had been terribly betrayed.
I was lured by my guides to go on a hiking event in summer 2016 with the promise that it would be very much needed for my recreation. I didn’t want to go there, but the signs and dreams were so many and so insistent that I gave in.
It turned out that the hike was way too strenuous and difficult for me. And what was even worse is that I got a severe rheumatoid arthritis attack from the strain of going steeply downhill which kept me in pain and unable to walk for almost 5 months afterwards.
I felt terribly betrayed after that trip and regretted that I had participated at all. I felt that I could never listen to my guides again after they did that to me. I even thought that I could not continue with the creation of the divine guidance workshop. How could I possibly teach others that listening to guidance is a good idea if the spirit guides can lead one into a painful disaster?
A dream then indicated to me that I was knocked out on purpose in order to put me into alignment. Apparently this 5 months period where I was not able to go for walks was something like a time-out or detention in order to get me into alignment with the will of my higher self and make me prepare the divine guidance workshop which I had procrastinated doing for more than a year (but which I held in spring of 2017, eventually).
If the higher self wants to achieve something, there is a point in the journey where resistance becomes just too painful. I am forced to yield to this higher power even if my personal preferences are not met. It often seems as if exercising my free will becomes more and more unpleasant.
One year after the hike, in summer of 2017, it turned out that a negative guide was involved in this, and he was dismissed (see here ). So, even though there was a benefit from this whole hike-pain-experience (because I finally did create the divine guidance workshop after that), the event caused some scars regarding trust which had to be dealt with afterwards, from my side as well as from the side of my guidance. This process of rebuilding the trust after 2016/17 was like two steps forward and one step back, and then repeat. And it is still work in progress (at this point in time in January 2022). Some people have the ability to sense the vibrational energy of their guides, but I can’t sense vibration. So, I don’t know whether a guide is negative or not and attracting a negative guide can always happen again to me.
In summary, trust in guidance is essential. But I found that it is not always easy to have trust. And the whole topic is multifaceted.