The spiritual journey is a shift from the identification with the personality self to the consciousness or awareness that is the substratum of everything. Therefore, part of this journey is a ripping off of the attachments to the former personality. Any unconscious blind spots are mercilessly brought into awareness. The lessons will appear again and again until we get it.
Therefore, it is helpful to know about one’s blind spots. Then, this process will be less arduous.
Now, one could argue that the personality is not what we are. We are consciousness which is behind everything and which contains everything. So, why bother with the personality?
In my experience, waking up to the fact that we are awareness and that everything happens in awareness is not enough. Afterwards this understanding has to come back into the body and it must be lived in everyday life. This means looking at all formerly unconscious attitudes and habits and letting them go if they are based in fear, for example.
In connection with the topic of divine guidance, it can be helpful to look into personality type systems.
There are many different systems (like Myers-Briggs Type Indicator, MBTI) which try to put personalities into categories like into neat little boxes, too many systems to list them here. I just want to briefly mention three systems (or aspects of systems) which I found eye-opening in my case, that is the Enneagram, the North and South moon nodes in astrology, and Human Design.
I have tried a few personality type systems, but I have never felt as X-rayed as when I came upon a book about the Enneagram by Richard Rohr and Andreas Ebert. The Enneagram describes 9 personality types. One finds his own type by answering a questionnaire.
In the Enneagram system, for example, my personality is type 5, which is ‘the observer/investigator’. This is the type who likes to be alone and read and think a lot.
Enneagram type 5 can stay forever in the comfort zone of the student position, reading one book after another or taking class after class, never feeling ready to go out into the world and share something of his insights. Additionally, this type has a high fear that his privacy is violated.
During my journey, I find that I had to battle with both of these character traits. I had to learn that I don’t need to read another book in order to be able to share what I have experienced. And I had to overcome the fear of being vulnerable when I share personal stories. I am grateful that I came upon the Enneagram and that these traps were brought to my awareness.
What the Enneagram also offers is a ‘good’ vs ‘bad’ direction of development ( or rather growth vs stress development). In my case of type 5, the system tells me that when I am moving towards the type 7 (becoming scattered), this is an unhealthy stress reaction. On the other hand, moving towards type 8 (decisiveness and self-confidence) would be a sign of healthy development in the direction of growth.
If you are curious and want to explore this further, there are plenty of websites and books about the Enneagram out there. A starting point for an overview could be this site https://www.enneagraminstitute.com/how-the-enneagram-system-works/
The North and South Nodes of the Moon
Another other eye-opening insight for me came after I had my first astrology reading (by fellow WordPress blogger Linda), more specifically, from the part about the North and South Moon Nodes.
I have Aries North Node and Libra South Node. That means that my comfort zone (South Node) is being the peacekeeper, but that the area of growth (North Node) is prioritizing my own goals first and that this lifetime is an assertiveness training.
That was eye-opening. Suddenly, I could make better sense of all the instances where people had told me, “You better behave as I expect you to, or else…”. I was wondering why I seemed to attract so many bullies into my life. But they were probably just part of my assertiveness training in this lifetime.
If you want to look up your North and South Nodes based on your date of birth, here is a useful link http://astrostyle.com/learn-astrology/north-south-nodes/ .
Thanks to several in-depth WordPress blogposts by Dayna about her discoveries in the Human Design system, I also looked into that. The Human Design chart is generated based on the date and time of birth.
My type is a 1/3 Generator. From what I’ve read so far, this means something along the lines of going through several areas of challenges or new experiences in life and always doing one’s own in-depth research and figuring things out for oneself. And I can relate to that.
One eye-opening thing I’ve learned from my Human Design chart is that I have an open Root Center (- the Human Design centers can be either ‘defined’, ‘undefined’, or ‘open’). This explains why I have a hard time to relax when there are things on my todo list. If I know that I have many obligations, I feel a tremendous pressure to get it all done, always hoping to reach a state of an empty todo list so that I can relax. Good to know that this is one of my challenges in this life with which I was born and need to learn how to cope.
There is more to discover. The whole Human Design topic is complex and requires a lot of reading. I have yet to dive into that more.
If you want to dig in further into this topic, you can get your free Human Design chart at jovianarchive.com.