Divine shopping help

‘I so much want to see evidence that I am loved and cared for by my spirit guides,’  I thought. The past few months had been very stressful and left me feeling drained. In this state of exhaustion and overwhelm, I was craving for someone to cheer me up.

Later on that day, I was waiting in line at the cashier of the grocery store. The woman in front of me had just put a T-shirt on the conveyor belt.‘Oh, they’re selling T-shirts right now,’ I thought.

‘I don’t need a T-shirt, but I do need new leggings. I hope the universe will send me a special invitation when they offer leggings here.’

Then I looked to the right where they sell last-minute items. What did I see?

A single pair of leggings – right on top of the chewing gums and cough drops!  I took it out and saw that it was exactly my size.  What a synchronicity!

I was floored with gratitude for the divine shopping help and the demonstration of love and support.

Love is inside

Today I did it. I couldn’t resist any longer. This book had been recommended to me three times by now. A clear sign that I needed to read it.

I am talking about A Course of Love (ACOL), the sequel to the Jesus channeling A Course In Miracles (ACIM).

Even though I am only halfway through reading Barbara Franken‘s wonderful book A Selection of True Awakening Experiences and was determined to finish that first, I downloaded Mari Perron’s A Course of Love today and started reading.

And then I realized, today it’s Valentine’s Day.

LOL! What a lovely synchronicity!

You know, I am German. And Valentine’s Day is not a big thing here. While some singles in the US tend to get suicidal  on Valentine’s Day, most people won’t notice this day in Germany. Like Halloween, it seems to have been imported from the USA (and any industry who can earn money with it will happily promote it). But I thought my English-speaking readers might appreciate this story.

Behold, true love is found inside of you.


Key ingredients of fast manifestation

Sometimes, a thought I have manifests really fast. So fast that I realized I need to watch my thoughts carefully because their results show up quite soon.
I have wondered about the key ingredients for fast manifestation and have come up with the following list:

  1. A Copernican shift in worldview
    The usual assumption is that consciousness arises from the brain. But that is not true.
    Rather, consciousness is what we are and the brain and everything else in the 3D reality arise from consciousness.
    Consciousness is one. There are not many soul-bubbles bouncing around randomly like molecules in a gas. It’s more like many branches of the same tree, or many arms of the same octopus. All is connected in consciousness. The illusion of the 3D world is the separateness of things.
    Why is that a key ingredient?
    Because the outside world shows up according to our belief systems. If we believe we are just a body-mind and all things out there are separate, then the universe will do us the favor and show up like this – as a hostile place. However, if we believe that everything is connected via consciousness, then the universe mirrors that belief system and shows up in a different way.
  2. Unconditional inner peace
    I found the peace that does not depend on anything outside by doing a 180 degree inward looking meditation. That is awareness looking directly back at itself.
  3. An unconflicted mind
    If  I have a deep wish, then I should not have a conflicting belief that says that I don’t deserve the fulfillment of the wish.
  4. Desire
    If a desire arises on top of that, then manifestation usually works fast. It can be a desire for the most mundane things (like french fries) or more complicated stuff.
    Since there is unconditional peace, the desire does not come from a needy ego place. There is no attitude like , “I insist that I must have this in order to be happy.”

I have written about a manifestation here:

A word of caution:
At some point in the spiritual journey, this manifestation business seems to break down. Then we are asked to surrender the reins and turn inside and ask Source, “What do you want me to do?”

The power of forgiveness

My wise inner voice urges me to share my spiritual journey. Yet, often I still recoil in fear from that task. (Somehow, I’m afraid they might still hunt witches in Europe.)

So, mid of October 2014, I manifested three opportunities for sharing and writing under my real name. But each time, I had second thoughts about it. And I would procrastinate.

And each time, something in my surroundings would mirror that hesitation.

Often, this sort of fear-based procrastination was mirrored by some clogged things. Oh, I didn’t know how many things there are in a household that can be clogged! Coffee machine, dishwasher, drain, toilet, shower head…
A year ago, I even had breathing issues  – a clogged throat chakra.

In the second half of October 2014, the drain in the bathroom sink was clogged. I do prefer a clogged drain over a clogged throat chakra, but it still sucks.


I was aware immediately that I probably caused the clogging by my resistance to sharing under my real name.  I assumed that I would have to pour chemicals into it in order to fix the drain. How annoying! Sometimes, life on Earth sucks.

Then one evening, I confessed to my husband, “You know, the clogged drain is very likely caused by my refusal to respond to that newspaper’s call for readers’ experiences about spirituality.”

He listened patiently, probably not believing my theory. Then, he got up and went to the bathroom. “Honey, did you do something to the drain? It appears to be cleaned now.  I didn’t pour any chemicals into it. Did you?”

No, I didn’t either.


The power of forgiveness is that I come into alignment with my real being, i.e. that I find my inner peace even if faced with disturbing situations. As a result of that, the outer circumstances can change since they reflect my inner emotional state.


The magic wand of inner peace

I learned that choosing inner peace over anger brought a huge advantage. Not only did my light bulbs live longer (as I have described in the previous post), but little wishes seemed to be fulfilled promptly.

The trash bag story
Some years ago, when my little kids were out of the house for a week, I was cleaning out their rooms, collecting old toys that they would not need any more (- well, that I had decided they would not need any more).

I collected many small transparent trash bags full of old and broken toys. But the amount of toys was just too large for our garbage bin outside. So, I had to store the transparent trash bags in the basement.

Then I thought, ‘Oh, it would be sooo useful to have one of these really large heavy-duty drawstring trash bags, which are opaque, in order to hide the old toys, so that my children cannot see them when they come home.’ I was afraid they would l start lengthy discussions about whether these things can be thrown away or not.

That was just a thought. But we didn’t have any of these large opaque trash bags at that time and I did not consider buying any.

Two days later, when I got home from work, I saw some strange plastic lying in front of our garden door. I looked closer wondering what that was. And it was a large opaque drawstring trash bag, arriving just in time so I could continue with my toy-clearing work the next day.

Wow! I was sooo amazed at how this works. This sure seemed like a very strange synchronicity. Too strange to be just some random coincidence.


Over the years, there have been many such fast manifestations. They had some things in common. Always, the underlying feeling was one of inner peace. And on top of that inner peace, a desire occurred. A spontaneous thought like , ‘Oh, it would be sooo nice to have this now.’

The important point is that I didn’t make my inner peace dependent on the fulfillment of the wish. Rather, the inner peace was unconditional.

Choosing inner peace became important to me because it is like having a magic wand.

How many light bulbs does it take to choose inner peace?

Even though my spiritual journey started with the quest for inner peace, there were times when I didn’t feel peaceful at all.

In 2009, I experienced a major disappointment. I felt treated unfairly. Since then, anger was my constant companion for about three years.

About five times a day, I had a thought spiral running in my head, ‘This is unfair. I feel so helpless. I feel so much rage.’

I was not able to get out of the vicious cycle by myself. But the universe helped me in amazing ways to vote for inner peace. Each time I was playing the ‘How unfair’ tape in my head again, weird things would happen around me.

When I was upset, light bulbs in my room would suddenly burn out.

Or one day, when I was in major inner turmoil, my freezer would stop working, with a weird unknown error code. It would do that several times, and it always coincided with me feeling angry. It occurred so often that when I got really upset I would always go into the basement and check whether our freezer was still working.

On another day, I felt overwhelmed by the requests from society ( pre-school teachers, neighbors, parents…) and I thought , ‘Oh, leave me all alone! Don’t bug me with your requests of what I should do for you. Just stay away from me! ‘

And what happened? The cutout switch of the doorbell broke down and needed to be replaced ! Ha ha, that was a great answer from the universe. I wanted to be left alone, and if the doorbell cannot ring anymore, then nobody can come in – and I will get my wish fulfilled. Thanks a lot , dear universe. Very funny!

Another story: I got really upset about someone. In this emotional state of intense anger, I entered an elevator. Guess what, the elevator didn’t work. It didn’t even manage to shut the doors. So, I took the stairs up and I wondered again, ‘Was that caused by me ? Really ? Weird…. ‘.

Eventually I got so fed up with the high maintenance cost of all the burned out light bulbs that I realized that I should better watch my thoughts and my inner peace.

Here, A Course In Miracles (ACIM) was helpful. This channelled work is about finding inner peace and finding the inner teacher. Within 5 months, I did about the first 100 ACIM workbook lessons and that helped me a lot. Additionally, I had two sessions with a coach. After that, I felt sufficiently peaceful (and just stopped doing the lessons. Note to all ACIM folks: I am sure you will forgive me for not finishing all 365 workbook lessons.)

I had never heard of phenomena like this before. Was I going crazy that I believed that my emotional turmoil was the cause of burned out light bulbs?

But then, I met several people who had the same thing occurring to them. I have heard of a local area network failing several times, a street-lamp going dark, light bulbs burning out every other week, and an electric outlet burning through. All these things occurred when the respective person was in an emotional crisis. I have been told by someone who had a Near Death Experience (NDE) that this phenomenon is also common among NDEers.

There is a blog post by Lindsay Curtis about the influence of human energy fields on electronics with many comments by readers who experienced something similar: http://www.thedailyawe.com/2011/05/can-human-energy-fields-affect-electronics/  ( the link does not work anymore. Seems like she has taken the post off her blog, unfortunately.)

So, it seems that I am not the only one who experiences these strange phenomena. I am not going crazy. Good news.

On the contrary, by being guided to choose inner peace more consistently I am regaining my sanity.

The stubborn baby tooth

I have wished for a sloooow ramp-up of this sharing of my spiritual journey. Still clinging to my privacy. Still hiding in anonymity.

In September 2014, something strange happened. My son (who had no problems with getting new teeth before ) suddenly had a new tooth emerging while the baby tooth still had not fallen out. It was sort of dangling there, only loosely connected. Not of any use anymore, but still stubbornly held onto.

Two teeth in the same spot – that is a very strange sight. I gave a homeopathic remedy which is supposed to help in such cases . To no avail.

Then it occurred to me that this was a mirror of my situation. It was as if Source was smiling at me, saying, “You wanted a sloooow ramp-up? This is what a slow ramp-up looks like. Still clinging to your anonymity like your son’s body is clinging to the baby tooth. And it causes the new tooth to be slightly displaced. Think again. Is that what you really want?”

Uh. I got the message.

I told my son that we would see the dentist in December. And if the tooth hadn’t fallen out by then, it would have to be pulled out. My son was scared.

End of November, I finally decided to make this blog publicly available. Guess what. Two days later, the stubborn baby tooth finally fell out. No dentist needed. What a relief!

This is one of the many broad hints I received by the universe that writing this blog is the way forward for me.

I am always in awe of these synchronicities. They point to the invisible intelligent power behind the scenes. They point to God.