In the past posts, I have talked about all the bad stuff of being a woman. All the little misogynistic incidents, all the everyday sexism. But when I share what it has meant to me to grow up as a girl and woman, there are also some more neutral or positive aspects to be mentioned.
Mom’s Encouragement
Despite some discouraging things my mom did that held me back, I want to mention that she told me, “If you really want to achieve something, you can do it.”
That statement was very important for my self-confidence, and when life became tough, I remembered what my mom had told me.
Gender-Specific Learning
My mom was very much into handicrafts of all kinds and she taught me a lot. And I was eager to learn sewing, knitting, crocheting, and much more. She also taught me a bit about cooking, baking, and about how to cut someone’s hair.
When I was older, my mom taught me how to sew. And I made many dresses for myself. I liked the fact that I could make the dresses or shirts exactly as I wanted them. I could choose the pattern, the fabric, and the colors. I wasn’t stuck with the options that were available in shops, but I had much more influence on the style. If I had set my mind on having an emerald-green shirt with batwing sleeves in a fabric that didn’t need to be ironed, such a shirt was probably difficult to find in the shops. But I could always sew it myself if I could find the fabric.
But when my bike had a flat tire, this was my dad’s job. He didn’t teach me how to do it, but he would just fix it himself. But I also wasn’t as interested in learning how to fix my bike as I was in how to fix a hole in my t-shirt.
So, I grew up with a skillset with the typical gender bias. That can be seen as an advantage or a disadvantage. I see it as neutral. It happened, and there are certain consequences. But I am okay with the result. I can fix holes in my shirts and don’t need to throw them away. And if I don’t know how to fix my bike, I go to the local bike shop and pay them to do it.
Clothing
Not everything was bad about being a woman. I liked being able to wear pretty dresses, jewelry, and fancy, braided hairstyles when I was younger.
When I was in elementary school, I played violin in an orchestra from the music school. And on several Sundays, we gave concerts. I remember that my mom sewed me a new dress for almost every concert because she liked to sew, and she was so proud of me and wanted me to look pretty.
I also saw the advantage that sometimes women’s clothing was much more practical at times. Sure, we didn’t have as many pockets on the pants as the men did. But I remember one hot summer during our high school trip to Rome in Italy when I wore a (self-made) loose cotton spaghetti strap dress and how wonderful that was during the heat. The boys and especially the male teacher were envious that they could not wear something light like that.
Social Interactions with Other Women
I enjoyed friendships with other women and that we could talk about deep personal stuff. I can’t say for sure how this is between men, of course, because I lack the experience, but I think that often between them it is not so deeply personal and open. My guess is that their talk is more about impersonal stuff and that they keep each other at arm’s length and have more need to state their independence.
Also, the communication style is different. At work, I’ve often observed the interaction between men at lunch conversations. Among men, it is more accepted to make jokes about each other, some playful insults, as if that was a means of establishing contact. Among women, that would be unusual behavior. When I saw that behavior among the guys, I wouldn’t want to be a target of their playful insults, and I was glad that I was not a man.
No Compulsory Military Service
When I was younger, the guys had to do compulsory military service after they graduated from school whereas the women didn’t. In Germany, the compulsory military service was suspended with a new law in 2011. I thought I was lucky that I wasn’t drafted.
Restrooms
In public restrooms, the queues for the women’s restroom is usually longer. But I was really grateful that we got to pee in privacy behind a closed door. The men had to get used to relieving themselves with other guys present. Unthinkable for me.
Dancing in the Follower Role
When I was younger, I did a lot of competition dancing, ballroom and Latin. Dancing in the follower role is different than in the role of the leader.
A couple of times, when not enough men were present at an event, I danced in the leader role. That felt unfamiliar and involved being a lot more active in the mind because I had to plan in advance which steps to dance next. However, in the follower role, I could relax, be receptive, and wait for the lead of my partner. I enjoyed that much more.
So, each role teaches certain skills, and these skills are different. Men who have to dance in the role of the follower, are not trained to be in this receptive waiting state, catching the clues of the next lead.
Acceptance of Parental Leave
My boss readily accepted when I reduced my work hours after I got my first child. He probably would also have accepted it had I stayed home entirely for 1-3 years. But when I talked to a male coworker who also wanted to stay home for about a year after his child was born, he told me that our boss reacted a bit more surprised and also somewhat resistant to that idea.
Taking parental leave is accepted for women but not so much for men even though we have a new law in Germany since 2007 which encourages this for both parents (https://www.dw.com/en/german-family-minister-calls-new-parental-leave-law-a-success/a-3005391).
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This post is part of an online book about my journey with feminism and my son’s transgender journey. You can access the table of contents with links to each chapter here: TOC.