On Dec 22, 2012, I had the following dream, I was sitting at a table across from a guy. We were playing a board game that was designed like a map.
Behind me, stood a slim, tall man with a bald head. With a friendly smile on his face, this bald guy suddenly said, ‘Now I have to take this map away from you.’
Then the map was gone. And my opponent for the game was gone, too.
Astonished, I got up and wandered through rooms with white tiles on the floor and on the walls.
There were naked dancing women in these rooms. I asked them, ‘Have you seen the other player of my game?’ No, they were clueless and totally oblivious of anything except their own dance.
I was pissed. Who dared to take my map and my opponent away?
Then I woke up.
On Christmas Eve 2012, I got the book The Direct Path by Greg Goode, which I had put on my Christmas wish list. The book consisted mostly of exercises pointing to the awareness which is always there for every experience we have.
Then I noticed that the picture of the author featured a bald guy with a friendly smile. Was he the guy in my dream which I had just two days ago? I thought so. And because the dream seemed to point out that this book would be important for me to read, I made my way through the exercises even though I am usually more fond of reading stories.
The book pointed consistently to the background of silent awareness, which is always there prior to every experience. And this gave me a crucial insight. I had always thought, ‘Yes, I have understood that I am awareness. But it still feels as if I sit in my head right between my ears and as if awareness comes from my brain.’ But after doing the exercises, I got it that the feeling that there is a head is something that is contained in awareness – and not the other way round.
This post is part of a series about my spiritual journey (table of contents).